Rescue Me

"We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters, about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. And He did rescue us from mortal danger, and He will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in Him, and He will continue to rescue us." 2 Corinthians 1:8-10

These verses have been a huge encouragement to my heart recently. God has shown them to me on a couple of different occasions and I know that it is not by accident. Lately, I have been in such a place of despair that I honestly wondered if I would live through it. I know that may sound over-dramatic, but there truly have been times that I thought I would not endure. I cannot explain the pain that my heart feels with this unfulfilled desire to have a child. As Proverbs says, it truly does make the heart sick.

There is an ache in my heart when I see everyone around me living the life that I am longing for. I see people get pregnant, have their babies, their babies grow up and they have more babies...all while we sit here waiting, and waiting, and waiting. I don't understand God's ways, but I know that He understands my heart and does have something beyond what I could ever imagine in store. He is showing me that I MUST learn to rely on Him for my everything. He has given me more than I can bear, because He wants me to give it to Him to bear. I am praying every day that He will be my Rescuer, my Deliverer and give me the power to walk by His Spirit.

Surrender is much easier said than done, but I'm praying for Him to continue to work it in me. I am so thankful for all of your prayers for us. I don't think I can ever express my thanks enough. Please don't stop!!