I saw a list like this in a newsletter for those struggling with infertility. I wanted to share what life is like for me right now.
To wake up in the morning, I need an alarm clock because there are no little ones to jump on my bed to wake me up.
I take my time getting ready in the morning, because I don't have anyone to dress but myself.
Instead of changing dirty diapers, I change a puppy pad.
Instead of preparing lunch for school, I pour fresh food and water for my dogs.
I have no clue what it's like to have a dryer full of little clothes that are "so aggravating" to fold.
My picture frames are filled with pictures of my nieces, nephews and friends' children becuase I haven't had an opportunity to capture the beauty in the faces of my own.
When I want to have a quiet moment, all I have to do is turn off the television.
When we go to church, we feel like the "outsiders" because everyone else has something in common.
I can't plan children, only "times" to try for them.
No, I don't know what labor pains feel like.
No, I don't know what it feels like to carry your world in your womb for nine months.
I've never heard "I love you, Mommy!"
If you have never experienced the pain of infertility, you can't relate. But you can pray for us. We long to have what you have. Take advantage of every opportunity you have with your children.
For those feeling what I'm feeling, stay strong. Love those who have what you have and pray for them. Try to be happy for them, even when it hurts.
"I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD. " Psalm 27: 13-14
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Longing for a baby: What my life is like
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Oh, Faith, I am crying and praying for you right this very minute. God is something else...I was just praying for this very thing for you and Chad about 30 minutes ago...it was probably about the time you were writing this. My college roommate Allison and her husband Paul had not been able to have kids naturally until they underwent IVF two years ago (that took on the third and final time) and now they have two precious two-year-old girls. They are now starting IVF again and the doctors have told them the odds are really against them. Allison said, "Praise the Lord we serve a God who is greater than all the odds!" I am so thankful for that!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this humbling reminder.....I just wish I was there to hug you right now.
Love you -- Amy
Well, you know I'm crying. My heart hurts so badly for you. I know I don't know what you are feeling. But I do know that you prayed for us when we were struggling 4 years ago and you didn't know what we were feeling at the time either. So I'll just keep praying to the One who does know and who loves you even more than we do.
ReplyDeleteLove you,
Jen
Honey... there are really no words. I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it happen for you. Do not ever doubt that I have prayed and prayed and prayed for you. That the Lord would sustain you and that He would provide for the desire of your heart. I will continue to pray and I will continue to carry this burden with you as much as I can. We love you with all our hearts and your hurt becomes ours! Love you!
ReplyDeleteFaith,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the sweet words. I'm so glad to know that maybe we can encourage one another through this journey. God is good and He wouldn't have given us a desire for children for no reason. So, we'll trust Him regardless of the way He provides, right? Hang in there! Great to "meet" you!
Stephanie
Oh girl.....my heart aches for you all, and it has for so long...I have continued to pray and pray and I know, I KNOW that one day God is going to hear you're heart's cry. You and Chad are going to be amazing parents!!!
ReplyDeleteGreat post. I love having someone else who understand EXACTLY how I feel. :-) It makes it hurt a little less.
ReplyDeleteOh God bless you and Chad, I am in tears right now. God will bless you and it will be the greatest thing in the world. I am praying for you and Chad.
ReplyDeleteHi!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment. I am excited to know another one of my readers!
Take care,
Kelly
Faith I have never quit praying!! What a beautiful poem or post or thoughts or whatever you call it. I can only imagine, but I can certainly pray for your pain and hurt. I love you my friend.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through Kelly's Korner (sweet girl). So sorry you are dealing with infertility. Just remember everything happens in God's time. I, too, struggled for over three years to have children and EVERY day without one was difficult. When I FINALLY became pregnant, I got one for every year of trying (triplets).
ReplyDeleteYou truly don't know what great things are in store for you. Just keep the faith while you wait and keep your marriage strong and healthy.